xxcaitiemariexx

What does it mean to be in love? Being in love...it means so much to different people everywhere no matter where your from. It could be having someone to talk to, having someone to hold you, or just having someone to always be there for you. For me, well i used to have that...i had my best friend, my lover, my everything. He could make me feel better about absolutly anything, and he did. We would have conversations about nothing and everything at times. He would tell me he loved me and i would feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I love him so much. Ever since I first met him. I remember the day i first met him too. It was in my algebra

so usually i really like my daydreams...but today i hated it. i got so scared. heres how it went...: i was just sittin on the couch watchin tv and then bam the power goes out so im like watever ill listen to my ipod... so about 5 minutes into listening to it i thought i heard a somewhat of a thump persay. i got up looked around everything was normal checked everyroom and nothing was misplaced or anything so i just assumed i was hearing things and then i look outside to see if it was still raining out it was pouring and then i see it.. in the middle of the road was a body just laying there. next to a bike. i quickly run outside to see if

I dont know where i stand right now. im so depressed. everything is going in the wrong direction. sometimes i wonder what it would be like if i had no siblings or friends. or a family to look up to. if my mom never married my stepdad Brian and my dad Fred stayed with her and me, maybe things would be different, and i wouldnt have this messed up family. Like a paranoid stepfather who thinks im doing nothing but breaking the law, a 6 ft 7 tall asshole of a stepbrother, a pill addicted mental stepbrother whos only 16, a lazy ass son of a bitch (but i love him (:) stepbrother, and awesome stepsister who i havnt seen in like 3 years, a little half